If I do it'll be like betraying myself-- another part of myself. Loaded with knowledge of my doings, both right and wrong, as if I'd eaten the forbidden fruit from the tree of knowledge itself, it's there, like an entity with it's own identity, demanding acknowledgement, my belligerent conscience.
I've developed it when I attended school early this year. and it's been there ever since. sometimes I can even TALK TO MYSELF --god i must be crazy!--.It's like a split personality, my other half. and apparently, the cause of the lack of my name in the teacher's blacklist of mischievious children and my getting 1st in the class for 2 semesters was this conscience. Debates of actions have been going on in my mind and my rebel has been putting up quite a resistance. I -- oh my god my brother just found a cockroach in his room I'm scared shitless of cockroaches... it's a PHOBIA of them. My brother found TWO instead! oh my god he's screaming and freaking out ... except he's dealing with it... GARGH I HATE COCKROACHES!!!!! That's why I'm SO moving to Siberia when I grow up cuz' i dont' think cockroaches can stand the cold. If I were the creator, I'd curse myself for creating cockroaches!
it started about me -well, about my conscience- and now the subject's moved to cockroaches.
I've developed it when I attended school early this year. and it's been there ever since. sometimes I can even TALK TO MYSELF --god i must be crazy!--.It's like a split personality, my other half. and apparently, the cause of the lack of my name in the teacher's blacklist of mischievious children and my getting 1st in the class for 2 semesters was this conscience. Debates of actions have been going on in my mind and my rebel has been putting up quite a resistance. I -- oh my god my brother just found a cockroach in his room I'm scared shitless of cockroaches... it's a PHOBIA of them. My brother found TWO instead! oh my god he's screaming and freaking out ... except he's dealing with it... GARGH I HATE COCKROACHES!!!!! That's why I'm SO moving to Siberia when I grow up cuz' i dont' think cockroaches can stand the cold. If I were the creator, I'd curse myself for creating cockroaches!
it started about me -well, about my conscience- and now the subject's moved to cockroaches.
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